As far as I can remember I have always wanted to help people (at this point I may have beaten that point into the ground), but what I haven’t shared yet is how I thought I would do that. When I was a little girl I used to tell people I wanted to be either a spy or deliver babies, I know I know I was a handful. But as time went on my dream stayed the same but evolved. Fast forward to my decision to switch careers, I recall times at work when I was assisting on a medical problem, or responding to a call in the emergency room. I would constantly think to myself “man this looks so cool”. That feeling grew every day until I knew I had to make a change.
***Now this is just a part the story I will save the rest for another time.
One thing to know about me is that I’m a planner, I guess you could say I’m a total believer in the 6 P’s(Proper Planning Prevents Piss Poor Performance), and with this, I felt like I couldn’t plan enough. My strategy was breaking up my planning into the following phases; Research (I looked into things such as state requirements, private schools vs public schools, etc.), I picked the school I wanted to attend, found out all admissions requirements and planned accordingly. Knowing that nursing school wouldn’t be something I could just manage while working my job full time, I knew I was going to have to make a change in my job. Finding something to suit my needs was the next step. In preparation for my job change, my next step was a savings goal and plan, I wanted to be able to comfortably transition into my new nursing student life. After this, I started implementing my plan (that included taking pre-reqs, budgeting to maximize savings, looking into alternative job positions).
I must admit, I can’t tell you how many times during my implementation phase that I changed my mind about leaving, then changed it back. I felt like I was in hyperdrive, I was having a total freak out to put it frankly. My mind was playing the what-if game on repeat, I constantly thought about whether I was doing the right thing or not. I remember thinking, to myself that I needed to get it together, I knew I wasn’t as happy as I could be. But didn’t I trust myself, furthermore why was I not trusting in God’s plan. So to put it short, after receiving what I interpret as signs, a lot of prayers, and self- reflection, I just knew in the bottom of my heart I was making the right decision.
Being so close to graduating this is a time of reflection for me, and I have to say I’m so happy with my choices. However, I didn’t realize until a few weeks ago how truly blessed I am, to be able to recognize the change I needed to make and have enough faith in God to take that leap of faith.
“The secret to getting started is getting ahead is getting started. The secret to getting started breaking your complex overwhelming tasks into small manageable tasks, and starting on the first one” -Mark Twain